This post may be all over the place, but as of right now I haven’t announced anything to social media. This is going to act as a sort of diary for me to keep track of what I want to post but am holding in!
Seriously though, it’s SO HARD to keep a secret. I’m terrible at it to begin with! I just want to share with you guys when I buy four jars of pickles at the grocery store because I’m a walking cliche. And yes, I totally did that today.
SO. As of right now, I’m 9 weeks 3 days along. The first trimester. I’m still not sure when I want to tell the world, but I have been telling almost everyone I come into contact with. It’s not going to be THAT big of a surprise anymore!
When I was pregnant with Leopold I felt almost NOTHING the first trimester. When I went in for my first appointment I told the tech that I wasn’t going to be surprised if there was no baby in there. Obviously there was, I just so happened to be one of the lucky ladies who had it super easy! I never threw up, hardly got queasy, and didn’t have very many of the typical pregnancy symptoms.
This go around, I definitely feel pregnant!
I’m super bloated, completely exhausted, dreaming the most insane things, peeing every 5 seconds, and getting queasy every so often. Mostly in the evenings.
I cry a LOT more than I did when I was pregnant with Leopold. Last time I had a couple fits of the giggles, but those were my only real mood swings. This time I’m crying at the end of Balto (the happy part), Moana, and even a show called ‘Good Morning Call’ that is in Japanese and obviously marketed toward high schoolers.
I get unreasonably angry and the dumbest things. My mother in law’s mom predicted the gender and “is never wrong” and I was SO annoyed by that for DAYS. Today after our walk, my husband didn’t prop the door open for me and Leopold while I was unloading the stroller and I felt so much rage because of it! I know it’s ridiculous when I’m having these feelings but I can’t seem to push them away! Luckily they don’t last long.
I don’t get as hungry as I used to, and I can’t seem to eat as much. My nausea sets in around 4pm, so I’ve had to buy easy to prepare dinners, vs the more involved and ‘fresh’ meals I used to cook. Having a wild toddler doesn’t help the exhaustion either!
Luckily my husband has really been stepping up more and helping out. He is putting Leopold to bed or helping me do it, helping prepare some meals, letting me nap when I need to, and showing insane amounts of patience. He brings me coffee in bed every morning and I feel like a spoiled princess!
I’m only 9 weeks into the first trimester and I’ve already given up on my pants (that I’d JUST bought and actually fit for a short period of time). Now I’m living in ‘stretchies’ as my brother in law lovingly refers to them and dresses. Good thing spring is just around the corner! I don’t know how I’ll survive this South Carolina summer!
Our 8 week appointment went well. Everything checked out with my pee and my blood and my blood pressure too. The ultrasound was super cool since it’s always amazing and a huge relief to see that little bean wiggling around on the screen. The heartbeat was at 170 and apparently I ovulated from the opposite side of my uterus this time. It’s so cool that they are able to tell you that!
13 week update:
I’ll be 13 weeks tomorrow and I’ll be announcing then as well. I’m SO EXCITED to share this with you guys…you just don’t even know. I’ve been bursting at the seams (in more ways than one) lately wanting to say something but also wanting it to be done at the ‘right’ time.
I decided to announce on March 15th because it is the day my mom went to be with Jesus two years ago. It was one of the saddest days of my life, but good in the way that she was no longer in agony like she had been the past few months.
I will never forget that it happened during the 30 minutes I had decided to drive out to Once Upon a Child. I was sifting through baby shoes (for my four month old *eye roll*) when I got the tearful call from my sister saying ‘I think mom’s gone’.
We now joke that it was the first time that Leopold actually fell asleep in my sisters arms. He would never sleep on her and it drove her crazy, so the one time he finally did, mom passed away in that same moment. It was an emotional day, and one I’ll never forget.
When my mom was a day or two away from passing, she was unresponsive. Some of you may know that as one of the signs that a person’s time has almost come. I remember holding her hand and telling her that it would be okay for her to go. We are going to be okay, and she won’t be in pain anymore. I remember her telling me when she first got sick “I might be able to hold your next baby before you do!” with excitement in her eyes. So that day by her bed I asked her to please send me a little girl if she could.
I had the greatest relationship with my mom. I have no doubts that I’ll have a good relationship with Leopold when he is older, but I just feel like mother daughter relationships are special in a very different way. I wanted the chance to have what we had, honestly.
It may sound silly, or crazy, but I really do believe mom got to spend the last couple years with this baby, and I believe she may have had a hand in getting me my girl.
Phew! Okay, here I am, crying again. I’m a weak mess when it comes to writing about my mama. Now that I’m pregnant…bring on the waterworks! Being pregnant is never easy but having to do it without my mom this time SUCKS.
My 12 week appointment was just the other day. My mother in law came along, and I brought Leopold too. We were all so excited to hear baby’s heartbeat for the first time!! It was right around 146 and she was wiggling all over the place, according to my midwife. My blood pressure is still really good which is always a relief to hear! It was a super quick appointment and I’m excited to go in next month for my anatomy scan!
Within the last couple of weeks I’ve started feeling much better. I definitely took a nap the other day but I blame daylight savings time. My queasiness has subsided for the most part, but my appetite is still pretty weak. I have to remind myself to eat most of the time! I’m happy that I’m actually able to cook dinner and then want to eat it now, too.
I was getting pretty frequent headaches for a couple of weeks but I haven’t had one of those in a while (knock on wood).
We found out last weekend that it’s a GIRL thanks to the Sneak Peek Gender test! I’m going to write a whole post on that for next week because it was such a cool experience! We are over the MOON!
The physical symptoms are subsiding but I’m definitely still easily annoyed and I cry more frequently than before!
Second Trimester, here I come!
The ‘Due Date’ for this little nugget is September 20th. 10 days before Leopold turns three! It will be interesting to see if she comes before or after that date!
Stay tuned for more updates and pregnancy related posts! I’m SO excited to have you guys along for our next adventure!
Looks like I’m going to need a pink letter board from Felt Like Sharing!